Spring Fic Exchange_ Of seeking and finding, for just_ruth
backroadsspirit
Recipient: just_ruth
Author: Backroadsspirit
Artist:just_ruth
Warnings/Spoilers:none
Rating:G
Characters: Sam, Dean
Genre: Humor, Family
Wordcount:3254 words
Original prompt: Baby is stolen, "You´re sure that´s translated right?", "Officer, I can explain."
A/N: Thanks to just_ruth for both her amazing prompt and the art she made for this story!! I took some liberty with the prompts, but I hope you still like the result:) Also, a huge shout out to my favourite beta and friend soncnica:) All remaining mistakes are mine alone. And finally, this is my first time participating in this challenge, so if I am doing this wrong somehow, please let me know.
Story summary:After a night out Dean wakes up to find the Impala gone. With the help of his brother and a somewhat dubious tracking spell he picks up the chase. But all is not what it seems...





It´s warm on this beach, the sun shining on his face, the wind tussling his hair as he takes another deep breath in to enjoy the fresh and salty air.

This is perfect.

Wait, when is anything ever perfect?

He tries to chase the annoying thought away, tries to refocus on the sun and the wind and the waves, but that´s the moment a yellow walrus on a motorbike rides past.

Mmh. Alright. I guess that´s slightly unusual. And how is there a beach here anyway? Aren´t we in Wyoming? And who the hell is shouting?

„Sam!“

„Sam, wake up!“

„Fuck, Sammy, come on, you gotta wake up!“

His brother´s panicked voice cuts through the last hazy remnants of Sam´s dream and he jerks awake.

Something heavy clatters to the floor and Sam has half a second to notice that he apparently fell asleep with one of Bobby´s spell books in his hand yesterday, before Dean commands his entire attention.

„Sam!“

He tilts his head upwards to where his big brother is currently staring down at him, hands in the air as if he was just getting ready to shake him awake if he had to. Dean´s still wearing the same clothes he wore to the bar last night, there´s a pillow crease on his cheek and a cloud of smoke, booze and panic surrounding him.

„Baby´s gone!“

„What?“

For a moment he wants to laugh out loud at the absurdity of this statement, the Impala, the car that´s been their only home, gone, but one look at his brother´s face sobers him up quickly. This is not something Dean would ever joke about. This is serious.

He climbs out of bed and hurries over to the window that´s overlooking the motel parking lot. It´s empty. The car is really, actually, for real, gone.

All their weapons. All their fake ID´s.

He´s starting to share Dean´s panic.

“What are we going to do now?”

He nearly jumps out of his skin as Dean speaks again, directly into his right ear. The smell of cheap whiskey grows stronger.

“I´d say you start by brushing your teeth”, he replies with more levity than he´s feeling. His brother gives him a shove and a half-hearted glare before they both turn back towards the window.

“Maybe we should call the police?” Sam asks, more because he feels like that´s what a normal person would say in this situation than because he believes that that´s actually an option for them.

Dean snorts derisively, obviously thinking the same thing.

“Are you sure you took the car back here?”

Dean nods vigorously. As Sam furrows his brow disapprovingly, he holds up his hands defensively.

“Hey, don´t give me that look. I wasn´t that drunk, okay? And it was only three blocks.”

“Mmmh.”

“Maybe four. Anyway, somebody must´ve stolen her!”

Sam is so worried he doesn´t even bother to roll his eyes at his brother´s incorrect use of personal pronouns.

“Have you checked outside yet?”

At this, Dean has the decency to look sheepish. “Not exactly. See, I figured four eyes see more than two, right?”

Without waiting for an answer he turns around and marches to the door like a soldier walking into battle. Sam follows a little slower, grabbing his jacket from the back of the chair he´d tossed it over yesterday.

Outside it´s a beautiful morning. The sun is doing its best to prove that spring is finally here, the birds are singing their approval and it faintly smells of flowers, even though there´s not a single one in sight. Everything looks calm and peaceful, except for the enraged Dean Winchester that´s standing where his car´s supposed to be.

“Look, she was exactly here! You can even see where you abused her breaks yesterday.” Dean pounts towards the wheel traces on the asphalt and shoots him a dirty look.

“Hardly my fault that kid decided to throw his football in my way! You´d rather I´d ran him over?”

“Don´t be ridiculous. I can only lose when I answer this question.”

“Lose what exactly? Your sanity? I`m afraid that boat has long sailed.”

“Well, good thing we´re looking for a car, then, isn´t it? Which, by the way, would be a lot easier if you were actually helping me!”

“Yeez, fine. See, I´m helping.”

Sam spreads his arms and does a slow 360. “It´s not here.”

But Dean had already stopped listening. Instead he´s crouched over the bushes at the edge of the parking lot, right in front of where the Impala should be standing.

“Dude, I doubt they hid it in this excuse for a hedge.”

“Of course not, but I thought I saw, hang on...Aha!” With a triumphant gesture Dean extracts a blue handkerchief from the twigs and holds it up with his fingertips. “Would you look at that!”

Sam steps closer and stares down at his brother´s finding skeptically. “It´s a piece of cloth. So?”

“Well, it´s a piece of cloth that wasn´t here when we came here yesterday, was it?” Dean asks slowly, as if he´s speaking to a child. “Which means, it belongs to the person who took the Impala!”

“Or to literally any other person that walked past here in the last twenty four hours.” Sam crosses his arms in front of his chest.

“Wow, no need to be so excited! I haven´t seen you find any clues yet, Sherlock”, Dean huffs, obviously offended by his brother´s lack of enthusiasm. Then he turns back towards the handkerchief. “Look, there´s a letter stitched into this: W.” He holds it up and shows it to Sam. “W like Walter? Wendy? Wilbur? Will?”

He stares down at the letter as if the force of his angry gaze could make it give up all its secrets. “Well, whoever it is, they Will be dead when I´m done with them!”

“Okay, yeah, I get it. Fiery death and destruction for our car thief. I´m with you there, but how do you plan to find out who this thing belongs to?” Sam interjects, before his brother can do something rash, like accusing the first person that´s coming by of thievery.

Dean frowns, thinking, then his face lights up and he hurries past Sam, the handkerchief clutched tightly in his left hand.

“Dean? What´s going on?”

“I have an idea”, is all he says as he practically sprints back towards their room, once more leaving Sam to follow. Back in the room he finds Dean bend over the spell-book that had fallen to the floor, frantically flipping the pages.

“There it is!”

He slaps his open palm down on a page and grins smugly as he holds the book out to Sam.

“What´s this?”

“A tracking spell! I´ve found it in here last month when I was looking for your laptop cord-”

“That you said you didn´t take-”

“Well, technically-”

“That I found later under the bed in Bobby´s spare room, behind your comic book collection-”

“You´re missing the point here, Sammy! This is a tracking spell that can find anything!”

“That you never actually tested.” Sam squints down at the page. “And that´s written in the most complicated ancient Greek I´ve ever seen.”

Dean rises an eyebrow in challenge. “What, you´re not up for it?”

“Pff, hand it over!”

***

“Are you sure that´s translated right?”

There’s a bowl of fruit on a small motel room table in front of Dean and he peeks skeptically at it.

“If you want to try it, feel free”, Sam snaps back, because it´s a perfect spring day outside and he has spent the last four hours sitting inside a sticky room wrestling with Greek verbs. And their car is still missing.

“Hey, no need to freak out. I´m just saying...”

Dean lets the sentence trail off and after taking a deep and calming breath, Sam has to admit his brother maybe kinda sorta has a point. This is the weirdest spell recipe he´s ever seen:

Hair of the dog. The lady next door has one. It´s shedding everywhere. Pretty simple

One part of whatever it is you´re searching. A piece of the handkerchief. Done.

Half a gallon of juice of a red fruit. Ketchup should count here, right?

Three drops of blood from the person who lost what you´re seeking. Done, even though Dean squealed like a total wuss. Don´t give me that look, man, you know you did.

Something that´s green. An old sock.

Something that smells. Doesn´t really say whether the smell has to be good or bad. Anyway, the sock should do.

Something that´s dearly beloved.

Sam looks up at Dean questioningly. “Honestly, I´ve tried to translate this three times, but that´s what it says. Something that´s dearly beloved. Beloved by who? In which way? Any ideas?”
“Mmh, maybe something the seeker loves? I mean, the spell needs my blood so that´d sort of make sense, right?”

Sam nods reluctantly, while his brother lets his eyes wander around the room in contemplation.

“Okay, how about this?” Dean turns towards his duffel bag and produces a bag of peanut butter M&M´s. “Man, I love this stuff.”

“I don´t think that counts.”

“But you don´t know it doesn´t, right?” He waits until Sam slowly shakes his head, then adds the candy into the bowl with a flourish. “So lets try it!”

Before Sam can protest, he grabs his lighter and drops it into the bowl with one smooth practiced movement. A bright, green flame erupts from it and the distinct smell of burned fabric slowly fills the room.

That´s it.

As the flame goes out, Dean is already on the way to the fridge to retrieve the ketchup bottle.

“ If at first you don´t succeed...”

***

They´ve ripped the handkerchief into tiny pieces. The ketchup bottle is nearly empty. Dean is beginning to look slightly anemic. There is not a single green item left in the room save for Sam´s boxers, and he´s keeping them on, thank you very much.

They´ve tried it with a page from Dean´s porn collection. His favorite cassette. A piece of pie from the bakery down the street. Nothing worked.

At this point it´s a little hard to read the text in the spell book clearly because the entire room is filled with green smoke, even though they´ve opened the window four tries ago. A more rational Sam would´ve given this up by now. A more rational Sam would´ve been slightly concerned about who might see the smoke emanating from their motel room. But this wasn´t about being rational, not anymore. This was about the Impala and his unchallenged abilities as a translator and he was not backing down now.

“Dean, I´m telling you, that´s what it says!”

“Well, it can´t be, because we´ve tried everything!” Dean´s former enthusiasm has long been replaced with a mixture of resignation and poorly hidden panic and he´s looking at Sam from blood-shot eyes on a too pale face, before he unceremoniously drops into a chair and cradles his head in his hands.

“Hey, you okay?”

“Yeah, just a lil´dizzy.”

“Okay, that´s it.” Sam slams the spell book shut. “We´ll have to find another way, because we´re not trying this again.”

He fills a glass of water for his brother and carries it over to the table. “Here, drink this.”

Dean raises his head and looks at the offered glass, then up at him with a quizzical expression on his face.

“What?”

“Nothing. It´s nothing, just...” He takes the glass and weights it in his hand thoughtfully. “If I drink this, will you let me try one more time?”

“What? Why?”

“Because I think I have an idea, dumbass. But you have to promise me not to look, alright?”

“Absolutely not.”

“Come on.” Dean tilts his head, his tone quickly crossing over from asking into whining.

“And let you set the house on fire? I don´t think so.”

“Please!”

“No, Dean, don´t even try that, you know it doesn´t work on me. No, I´m not even looking at you.

“Sammy...”

“Arghh, okay. Fine.”

He throws his hands in the air in defeat, while Dean´s face lights up with glee. He empties the water glass in two giant gulps and makes his way over to the table still swaying slightly, quickly setting up all the main ingredients they need. The ketchup bottle makes a pitiful noise as he squeezes the very last drop out of it and he manages to procure a green candy wrapper out of the depth of his pockets.

“You´re not looking, right?”

“No, not looking, Dean” Sam turned around as he heaved an agitated sigh. “See? Just please, don´t make me regret this.”

“Oh, I´m sure the only person who will regret this is the fucker who stole my car.”

There is absolute conviction in his voice that makes Sam more than curious about what secret special ingredient his brother had added to the mixture that makes him so certain it´ll work this time. Before he can ask, however, the now familiar sound of a roaring flame is to be heard. Then Dean gasps.

“Oh shit, it worked!”

Sam whirls around and really, above the flame floats the image of the woman who worked the reception when they checked in yesterday, carrying the blue handkerchief in her front pocket, before slowly flickering out.

“Well, I´ll be damned-”

Whatever Dean wanted to say gets interrupted by the sound of their motel room door flying open and crashing into the wall.

“What the hell is going on here?!”

In the door stands the dog lady from next door and in front of her, two police officers who look like they´ve been called away from their well-deserved lunch break.

“I told you, this has been going on all morning! I thought they would burn the whole motel down, officer.”

The brothers share a look, well aware that they were covered in ketchup spots and might have forgotten to clean up the drops of Dean´s blood that landed on the table. Then Sam puts on his best innocent smile and turns towards the door.

“Officers, we can explain...”

***

“Fuck, I really thought they´d never let us go.” Dean pushes the door of the police station open and storms outside as if he couldn´t stand to be within the building for one more second.

“If you would´ve let me handle the explanation from the beginning-”

“Oh yeah, because they were obviously buying the whole `My brother´s a little mentally challenged and only wanted to try a chemistry experiment he´s seen on TV`-angle.”

“Well, I still think they would´ve if you didn´t try to convince them we´re scientists working on a secret government operation half-way through.”

They glare at each other for about five seconds before Dean cracks a grin. “But you gotta admit, Officer Riley´s face was hilarious.”

Sam snorts. “Yeah, okay, true. And remember how the deputy looked when you told them you´ve found the secret to turn frogs into princes?”

Now Dean´s laughing. “Oh man, that was the most fun I´ve had in a while.”

The sun is slowly making its way towards the horizon as they walk down the street in amiable silence for a few steps until Dean suddenly stops short. “Fuck, Sam, the car! I totally forgot about the car!”

The smile falls from Sam´s face. “Shit, you´re right.”

“Oh that receptionist is going down!”

Dean´s about to set off running when his phone rings. He impatiently unlocks the screen and growls. “Hello?”

Sam can´t hear the person that´s speaking on the other side, but whatever she´s saying makes Dean´s face change from annoyed to confused to embarrassed within seconds.

“Uhm, Anne - Ashley, sorry, of course, Ashley. Would you mind reminding me what you´re talking about?” There´s a swell of excited words from the other side and Sam is pretty sure he´s heard the word `car`in there several times. Dean´s cheeks are turning redder every time until his face matches his shirt.

“Oh yeah, sure, I remember now. Uhm- and they enjoyed it? Yeah, great. That´s great. And where is it, you know, right now?”

Sam has a sinking feeling he knows where this is going. Dean shoots a careful look in his direction before he hastily focuses back on the phone call. “At the motel? With the keys under the door mat? Like I said, yes of course, that´s what I said. Uhm, yeah, maybe later. Anyway, thanks An- uhm Ashley.”

He ends the call and puts the phone back in his pocket all the while avoiding Sam´s eyes.

“So, let me guess. You didn´t bring the Impala back to the motel yesterday night?” Sam slowly crosses his arms in front of his chest.

“Yes, I did!”, Dean replies defensively. “The car and maybe also the cute bartender who totally had a thing for muscle cars and their owners.”

Sam shakes his head in disbelief. “And then what? You just... gave it to her?”

“No, not like that. It´s just, she was really nice and she told me her sister´s celebrating a huge birthday or maybe it was a wedding or something and that she would totally freak out if she could use a car like the Impala for that.” Dean scratches his head in embarrassment. “And she was pretty convincing, if you know what I mean. So I might have said yes.” The last part of the sentence is so soft that Sam barely hears it.

“It´s okay. You can yell now.” Dean lets his head hang as if he´s waiting for a shooting squad and Sam can´t help the spark of fondness that sneaks into his chest beneath all the irritation. Because, if you look at it from another angle, it was also kind of sweet of him to lend the car. Even though that´s something sober-Dean never would´ve done in a thousand years, even though it brought them a morning bent over a spell book and an afternoon in a holding cell.

He sighs again, then cuffs Dean slightly on the head. “I´m not yelling, even though you deserve it, jerk.”

Dean rubs his head, mumbling a “hands off the merchandise, bitch” that sounds suspiciously like a “thanks, bro.” Then, obviously happy to direct the attention away from himself, he asks. “But what about the handkerchief and the receptionist?”

Sam shrugs. “What about them? I guess it really belongs to her. She probably just lost it in the bushes.”

Dean nods contemplatively. “Yeah, probably. But at least we know the spell works.”

“Yeah, guess it does.” Sam turns to his brother. “By the way, what did you put in there the last time?”

Dean stares straight at the road in front of them, where the motel and, thank God, the Impala, slowly come into view. “The picture in my wallet. Don´t worry, I´ve got another copy somewhere in the trunk.”

“The picture in your - the one were we both sit on Bobby´s po - ”

Something that´s dearly beloved. Oh.

Sam feels something in his chest loosen and warm and it must´ve shown on his face, because Dean immediately plunks his elbow in his ribs. “Don´t let it go to your head, sasquatch. You´re still on laundry-duty this week.”

“What laundry? We hardly have three pairs of socks left between us.”

They´re both laughing now. After a beat, Sam says:

“Hey Dean?”

“Yeah?”

“Now that we know the spells works, you think we could use it to find some of your lost brain cells?”

“Oh shut up, Sam.”

SPN Summergen 2017
backroadsspirit
So, after the masterlist is officially out, I figured I might as well share my contribution to this year´s summergen here as well.Shoutout to the moderators dugindeep, kalliel and quickreaveror making this challenge possible each year,you are amazing!!

Title: The games we play
Creator: Backroadsspirit
Recipient: verucasalt123
Rating: K+
Word Count or Media: 4369
Warnings: Canonical character death
Author's Notes: Heartfelt thanks to my wonderful beta (you know who you are;)), all remaining mistakes are mine alone and I hope that all of you, but especially verucasalt123, enjoy my take on her prompt!

Summary: “I just think that it´d be nice if we could make our own rules every now and then.”
Or, The Winchester boys, a deck of cards and something about life.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/12058806

Prompt fill Celebrating Sam challenge
backroadsspirit
Just a little thing I wrote for the Celebrating Sam challenge on ohsam:)

Title: A kind of magic
Prompt word: unicorn
Rating:gen
Beta: Soncnica

Summary: "And you always told me they don´t exist."

A kind of magic

„Dean“

„Mmh?“

„Why´d you lie to me?“

Quick turn on his heels, head cocked to the side with a frown, more than a little conflicted between outrageous denial and which time?

“Don´t really understand that question, Sammy.” Guard up, carefully treading this unstable conversational grounds.

“But it´s lit´rally right there. Right behind ya. An´ you always told me they don´ exist.”

Sam´s voice edging towards whiny, Dean´s finger finding the trigger. A slow 360, scanning every inch of their room, hard-learned scrutiny: Hideous pink-striped curtains, an antique dust-covered pot flower kinda looking like it´s patiently awaiting its chance for world domination. But no threat.

Nothing.

Lowering the gun, eyes wandering back towards the 6´4 feet of little brother currently sprawled out on the bed by the window. The corners of his mouth rise. Oh, this is going to be good.

“Told you what doesn´t exist, Sammy?” All wide-eyed innocence, while his hand´s slowly reaching for his phone.

Unlock, voice recorder, start recording.

“Whaddaya think, idiot, the unicorn!”

Sam, completely serious, finger pointing agitatedly at a spot behind Dean´s left ear.

“How come you don´ see it? `S all shiny and sparkling.”

Teeth biting down hard on the inside of his cheek and keep it together now!

Because Sam´s face. Features more familiar than his own, stuck between impatient exasperation at his brother´s incapability and honest distress about him not seeing the sparkling magical creature he´s so fascinated by. And it makes him want to laugh but it made him want to cry, too.

“Don´t you worry your pretty little head, bro, I see something so much better right now.”

Going for teasing and missing by miles, truth slipping out between the syllables and damn it, but he feels that the thirty stitches holding his little brother´s side together right now are making him a little entitled.

“But Dean, you need to see ´t, this might be our only chance!”

Adamant and completely lost to reality, stuck in a world where showing his brother a unicorn is worth popping his stitches for. Luckily for him, Dean is faster. Before Sam can push himself up he´s there, hands placed on his shoulders.

“Hey, hey, relax, man, okay? I´m sure the unicorn´ll still be there tomorrow. You can show me then, alright?”

Eye to eye, green to brown, brother to brother. Tension melts out of tired muscles and Sam sinks back down. Not defeat but unconditional trust.

“Yeah, okay.”

And finally, their last dose of heavy-duty painkillers proving to be worth the money they didn´t pay for them. Breathing evening out, eyes slipping shut, body going limb and it feels like the whole room breathes a universal sigh of relief.

Kid never did know when it´s time to let go. Guess that makes two of us.

“Sleep well, Sammy.”

Heaving a sigh that´s equally relieved and resigned. Stopping the recording. Saving it in the file with little-brother-blackmail-material, even though he already knows he´s never going to use it for that.

Saving it anyway, just because he knows there´ll be times when he´ll want to remember how his brother sounds when he jabbers about unicorns like he doesn´t have a care in the world. Times that might already come tomorrow, when Sam´ll wake up to a stitched wound that would´ve killed him had it been a little further on the right and he´ll have to tell him they were all out of drugs.

And money. And hope.

Tired legs carrying him over to the chair by the door, eyes lingering on his brother´s sleeping form.

Well, maybe not hope.

Mumbling, to himself more than anything else: “Hope you dream of unicorns.”

Prompt fill for the Birthday challenge on Ohsam.
backroadsspirit
A little late, but I loved this prompt and had to do it. Thanks to soncnica for the quick beta reading:)

Prompt:Sometimes, Sam needs to take a quite moment to look through his memory box by madebyme_x



In Memoriam

An old wooden box, rusty hinges, peeled off paint. All of his thirty three years, in there. Not much to look at from the outside, but he knows better.

Nearly all of the photos are old, the colors all but faded. Most of them rescued from their old house, some showing Dad and Mom, sometimes with him and Dean. There is one John took of them on the day of Dean´s High school graduation. He never went, since there had been a poltergeist to hunt, but the photo remained.
Then one of him and Dean that is maybe five years old, the colors still clearly visible in the dim light of his bedroom table lamp. They´d been in the middle of trying to hold off the apocalypse and there had been too many empty glasses and then this photo booth in an empty street. He vaguely remembers puking on Dean´s shoes on the way to the motel, but on the picture they´re both grinning like the idjits Bobby had always accused them to be and Dean´s arm is lazily slung around his shoulder. There had been a time when he didn´t believe he´d ever do that again.

And then there is the one of him, Dean and Mary that he had laid down at his brother´s feet, waiting for the scythe to descend and hoping Dean would still be able to see the love and trust and goodness when it was all said and done. He never stopped hoping that.

There is his old pocket knife, a gift from Dad for his eighth birthday. There is a battered looking Zippo lighter and he will never forget the moment he dropped it into the grave, felt the heat of the rising flames on his cheeks and Dad´s hand on his bony shoulders. “Good job, son”. His first hunt and the night after, sharing a beer with his father and brother in a dark motel room and feeling like he belonged, if only until the sun came up in the morning.

Beside it, Bobby´s baseball. He remembers spending an entire summer trying to learn the finer points of the game and after accidentally shattering the windows in one of the fixed cars Bobby took him out to a small clearing behind the junkyard and taught him.

In a small plastic bag there is the bullet he pulled out of Dean´s side when he was sixteen and too tired from spending the previous night studying for a chemistry test and too worried about the English essay he still had to finish to see the shapeshifter sneak up behind his brother. Dad had held a trembling Dean down, mumbling reassurances too silent for him to hear while he dug the bullet out with shaking fingers and the knowledge that he could never wash his brother´s blood from his hands. He kept it as a reminder.

On the right side, there is an old deck of cards, worn out, some edges torn off, having passed between his and Dean´s hands thousands of times over the years. Dean had taught him how to play poker when he was seven and they were both cooped up in a motel room waiting for Dad´s return. He had seen his brother and father play and begged and pleaded until Dean grudgingly relented. It became their favorite pastime on long drives and during longer waits until Dean learned there were things in this world even more interesting than cars and guns, but even when they got older, they would find half an hour for a game here and there and it´s been a long time since he had been defeated by any stranger.

The wooden amulet the girls from the play had given Dean eventually found its way in there along with the real thing. Back then, he couldn´t bear the thought of leaving it behind and so it always traveled with him. He´ll tell Dean about it, eventually. Many things have changed since then and it wasn´t until he saw Dean wind the fake amulet around the rearview mirror that he realized that it ultimately makes no difference. They don´t need the amulet, not anymore. Maybe, one day, he´ll just drop it on the kitchen table, or bring it up in a casual conversation over a bottle of beer, just to let Dean know. That would be nice. Until then, it will be safe here.

On the bottom of the box is a folded piece of paper where a child´s unsteady hands have drawn three somewhat sketchy people in front of a big black car. “My family”, it said in slightly blurred printed letters, proudly signed by one Samy Winchesder. He had found it in Dad´s lock-up, along with Dean´s first self-made sawed-off and some of his old report cards.

There are few things he kept from Dad after he died. His wedding ring is one of them. Beside it, there is a small red box containing another ring, the one Jessica will never wear.

On top of the pile, there is the brochure from Oak Park retirement home. When they clinked glasses tonight, after the cake Dean insisted on making was all but gone he said “To the next thirty three, Sammy” and there had been a time where he might have chuckled and shook his head and threw the glass back already reaching for the bottle, but today he allowed himself, if just for a few moments, to actually believe in that. It was a blurry picture still, but lately it had become a little clearer. Deep down in his heart he knows that it is probably a fool´s dream, that the world will end before that and even if it doesn´t, there is a bullet out there with their names on it. Had always known that. But, hope is the whole point, after all.

The alarm clock on his nightstand tells him his birthday is over since three minutes. And, all in all, it had been fine. Dean had given him a book and they sat together eating cake and drinking. But that´s not what matters. He carefully closes the lid of the wooden box. What matters is sleeping a few doors down the hallway. It´s in his memory, stronger than anything hell could ever inflict on him. It´s in there. Sometimes, all he needs is a quiet moment to remember.

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